Love-Reunions

You know what i find most confusing in the world? Love. i don't understand it. no one does. you can't touch love, you can 't see it, you can't smell it, you can't even hear it......you can feel it. like an emotional feeling. deep inside your soul. sometimes you may think you love one, you may think you'll love them forever. you make-believe this little fantasy about you two being together. then one day it all vanishes......what you thought in your head that one day would become reality is just .........gone. you can't really find love, and you can't go looking. it comes to you, it finds you somehow.is it destiny? was it fate? i don't know. some like to believe there are soul mates for everyone out there. is there really soulmates? there are days when i believe it and there are some days where i find it impossible and confusing.....Love. one thing that remains a mystery to mankind
today two of my friends has a conversation. one of them hated the other one. she held a grudge against her since 7th grade which was 3 years ago. for what i don't know. anyway, Onna (the one who held a grudge) was away at a church camp for a week. she's mormon and their beliefs are very strong. i guess they must've been teaching a lesson about grudges or something. i get home from babysitting at 2 o'clock and Devni (the one who onna hated) IM me saying she had great news to tell me. and before then is when onna and devni had their conversation. she copied the whole thing and pasted it to our IM window. and when i read it i was shocked. the whole screen was full of apologies and forgiveness and how grudges affect people. all of those words which came from onna. you see, it took onna 3 years to say sorry to one girl she had been mean to and hated. something must've clicked in her mind to make her open her eyes and really SEE what she had been doing and how badly she hurt devni. which just goes to show that, grudges can be held for many a years and then they just vanish. no matter how long you hate a person, one day all the hatred towards them will just.....leave you. and suddenly guilt overcomes you. im not saying it's ok to hold grudges and im not implying that we shouldn't hold grudges. we're human beings we make mistakes. im just saying. hate all that you want, hate all that you can. in the end it'll be worthless because the hate evaporates.............
when you read, think of me...............

First Time

well, this is my first time writing a blog of my own. i don't know what to think of it and i don't know if anyone will read it. it's just all about me. my life. what i go through. and personal thoughts. to start with, im a teenager who's going into high school. first year. it's all very exciting and frightening at the same time. new school, new people, new classes. a whole new beginning. i haven't started yet..but i will first week in september. i'd like to think of it as a new life. things change during the summer ; people especially. and i can easily say im not the same person i was in middle school. seems like a lifetime ago. for now, i see nothing else to write about. so until tomorrow, my fellow readers.
while you read, think of me......